I'm heading back to http://khloee.blogspot.com yet again.

Don't blog when you really got nothing to say.

Actually there's too much to say till I don't know how to blog it out.

Getting back into action.

If nothing seems to go the right way, I'll go the way to make it right!
The reverse effect!

Kind of sick of the feeling for the past one week.
It's complicated, I thought I was hallucinating.

Anyway, I had an average weekend.
Gastric for 2 days and almost 3 makes it bad enough to even make me feel positive for the weekend activities.
I tried that goat milk, it felt so much better.

Maybe goat milk is my only solution now.
I've tried years of medication..
Thanks ppl who are with me all these days, especially my new friend, Jason, who happens to be my neighbour. Yea, like you said.. Its mystical.

I'm gonna fix my speaker by changing the wire.
I haven't been inputting music into my life all these months.
The tension and the stress, I almost give up everything.
At least singing and listening to music helps to soothe one's mind..

And the recent event with a friend.
I'm determine enough to watch him change. Because I never believe in impossible.

All these years,.. I had enough.
I'm gonna make this a turning point in my life to change something.
Not forgetting my 3 years plan from now, or probably start of next year..
& all my motivations to my goals and dreams I used to have.

I'm still finding back what I am.
It takes time. Maybe I won't be what I was before.. At least for the better and new Khloe.
I've been telling myself so much but nothing is done. (bang wall, lol)

I hope I can, I think I can, and I can.

I've seriously lost my soul.
It was gone since the
start of the year.


Who can find it back?

Maybe contacting is a mistake.
Maybe asking a favour is a big mistake.

I've already lost myself these days.
I'm really trying my best.. To get myself numb of that feeling.
History will be repeating again.

I hope not. Really not.
I've waited for almost 2 years.
Not gonna lose it once more.


I shall not initiate this time.
I'm tired.
Tired of testing and trying to find out the truth.
Full of high hopes, full of pain.
I don't know what am I expecting.
I don't know what I truly want.
I don't know what else to say..

All I want to see is happiness.

Am I doing for the sake of it or am I loving it?

I always don't seem that things go right, not because of my feelings but it is not right.
Maybe all along that feeling has already died off.

Should I drag on with it?
Or should I quit?

I need some wisdom.

I had enough.

Enough of my life.
I decided to end it.

Nope, I'm not killing myself.
I decided to draw a line and a fullstop to all these nuisance.

I'm looking for the old Khloe.
The one I was before.

Someone who has full of energy, perseverance, determination and passion.
Someone who opens up for everything, extrovert, and I don't know what else to describe.
I was once an amazing person.

Give me time.
I'll be back.

I'm gonna collect my precious treasure this Saturday and things shall change after that.

Thanks to someone.
I've finally found my senses.

Truly to say..
There's no coincidence in the world but an underlying reason for whatever things that happen.

I feel I'm a nuisance.
To almost everyone.

Probably you people don't really feel that way but I feel it.



I decided not to say much anymore.

This is for sure.

I'm blogging through my Nintendo Wii. Very lazy to sit down and stay at my computer.

Insomia loves me. But not the other way round. I've not been sleeping early for past 2 years, imagine that. I've not seen the morning sun more than 20times in the past 2 years, kill me please.

I can't take any naps. Zz...

Anyway.. I'm quite motivated and happy these days. Too much words to describe what happened for the last few days.

People change, me too.
But there's something I can't really describe after having a conversation with someone. Something very familiar, something new, something that makes me feel there's a distance yet close. I don't know.
Something that tells me, give up, it's already over, move on.
Something that tells me to stay this way.
Something that tells me it's impossible, because we belong to two different words.

I always believe things happen for a reason. Like someone who mentioned to me in buddhist practice: There is no coincidence but a underlying reason for each cause.

Perhaps so.
But what's the reason?
I ought to know.


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I'm suppose to blog something else but I'm lost for words.
Whats up with me today since morning? Probably its that weird dream... It really affect me a lot (lol). I seriously wonder what does it mean..

Bought a Jasper Wong X Rebel Scholar iPhone Case from SMG (JJ's shop)!




I bought the last one on the display case!
And it has 5 different of the stickers! :D

Just now one man ran to us and pass this.



Original copy for my mom, carbon copy for me.

Mom asked me what is this.
He said FLAG DAY!!!!

Then he walked away.

We were confused, I thought it's some kind of advertising or crap.
But that man was holding a red market plastic bag, bald looking, dress normally like around the neighbourhood...

And I look at the paper.
What the crap is this?......

I laughed because everything doesn't make sense.

Mail?
Fu Lu Shou?
Donation?
P.O ?
And the Fax number doesn't look local. ??

And the funny thing that I keep laughing is the 'FLAG DAY' part.
It means donation.

Next time when I need funds for my Apple iPad, I will say ITS FLAG DAY!!!!! LOLOL....

Oh wait, by the way you may wonder why there's corn at the back.
I was at NTUC.. -_-.

Today I went to Clementi for the treatment again.
One reason why I love going there because of the things they teach.
The things that you dont usually read it, the things that teachers dont teach during biology.
Unless you take extra time to goto the library or bookshop to read about them and usually they are in complex term.

Today's topic is about Electric.
People may ask if the thing we are sitting on is dangerous and will cause any side effect?

The answer is No.
The reason is you can touch any electric as long there's no ampere (A).
Electric from your power source of the plug has amperes on it and you will get electrocuted.
Whereas the one we are using for treatment has only 0.05A which is almost to none.

Hence it's very safe and doesn't cause any side effect to our body.

In fact, our body has electric currents.
And hence they use the machine to monitor our heart beat are monitoring the current through our heart to determine the condition of our heart.

We all have voltage in our bodies.

7V for new born babies and young kids.
5V for Adults
2V for Senior citizens
0V when you are dead.

When time goes by, this voltage gets lesser and lesser.
So it affects our movement of our body like the speed of walking, thinking, etc.
So our logic is: Our body movement and thinking gets slow because we are old. In fact, our body voltage gets weaker and weaker hence we get slow.
One example is when we got tripped by ourselves without any obstacle on the ground. That's one sign of losing of voltage.

When you talk about voltage/ electric currents, there will be positive and negative charges.
Same goes to our body.


Our red blood cells are full of positive charges.
But around the red blood cells are covered with negative charges.

You all know positive with positive/ negative with negative = repel.
Positive and negative = attract.

Hence, our red blood cells moves one at a time.
They don't merge together at all.
So your blood is all liquified.


When we grow old, we are stressed in our enviroment together with the harmful radiations from the electronic appliances from our mobile phones,
microwaves in the kitchen (that's why most of the females especially housewife has the most health problems by statistics) and especially the electric cooker (i'm not sure what is that call, the one we usually cook with gas but the newer technologies uses inductor), that's the most harmful one to our body.

These harmful radiations are positive ions and entered to our body.

Slowly these positive ions stick to our red blood cells and all of the red blood cells attract to each other because they are the same charge.

(From here you may know why so many companies invented all the ioniser, negative ions air purifiers, washing machine which leave all the negative ions on clothes, all kinds and kinds of appliance you happen to see in stores.)



These red blood cells start to stick together as a clump and hence our blood gets thick and sticky.

Certain parts of our bodies like our head has very tiny veins and nerves that only allow one cell to flow through at a time. Taking an example, we get headache because of this because the clump of blood cells can't move through the veins and it causes a clog.


When cells can't move, oxygen can't carry around the head and so does the headache comes in.
So, there's no complete circulation around our body.
Same goes to our legs, neck, hands, etc.


We may think that by excercising, eating suppliments, and all sorts of methods helps to break those red blood cells (positive charges) apart. But in fact nothing else on Earth can help to break it apart except electric current. (Proven by the doctors & health researchers)

We all have to do some electric therapy to help to recharge our voltage.
I've mention about the voltage gets weaker each time, so doing this therapy will help to recharge our body.
This current will help to break those positive red cells by recharging more negative ions into the body and hence the red blood cells gets more liquified and we are back to healthy condition.


And you all may know there are a lot of companies who have these kind of ionisers and machines which gives out electric charges and why this is so special compared to the rest of them?

All the ionisers which gives out ions are constantly releasing out the same amount of output.
The machines which has electric charges are fixed voltages. They all can cure and help us but until a certain stage it will not help anymore.
Just like eating medicine for a long period of time and you will find one day that your body is immune to the same quantity and you need to increase the dosage.
Same theory, this is what is happening if your body constantly gets the same amount of voltage.

However the one that I went are releasing voltages that fluctuates (total 10,044 different voltages).
Each will change in every 5 seconds and the body will not get used to every of the voltages each time and so the result will be constantly increasing and improving our health all the time.

As shown below, the black line shows the constant output of the treatment for X product and the red line shows the one i'm undergoing that has fluctuating voltages.

There's too many others to type about and what they have taught about for the past more than 10 days.. I've learn quite a lot and actually..
Probably I should type some out for those which are more interesting and good for general knowledge.

BTW, I'm not doing this for any other purposes but sharing of extra knowledge.

Hello people and I'm back again.

Probably I'm not myself for the past few days.
Now, I'm on form. Can Perform!

I'm starting to get that annoying feeling
I choose to ignore that as I think maybe there is really a big gap between everyone of us.
Maybe I feel annoyed talking too much in the past
Maybe I feel tired of it.

I don't wish to care anymore.
Hate us if you want,
I feel damn irritated with everything from now!
And.. Now I should be focusing what I need to do and who are still with me.
Woosh!

So... back to the same old weekly routine - work sleep work sleep.
And I can't wait to visit the Fengshui gallery this Saturday too.
I can't remember what activity I have on Sunday..
But I'm thinking of going back to catch some prawns every weekend to practice more... before I can think of what else we can do, lol.

Even if he learn how to ride a bicycle, I don't think it makes life any more fun because we can only ride in the park.
Well, cycling on pavement is forbidden! Crap.

I'm still looking for the Joker bicycle.
If I can't find it by this year, I'm going back Taiwan next year to buy it and ship it back for good and that's for sure.

Now.....
What should I do?
No work today.

gone for good. :)

Feeling wasted.

Don't feel like going anywhere or doing anything.

Nope, I didn't drink last night.
I quit drinking quite sometime ago.

The last time I drank was in Taiwan last month, trying out the BOLS lychee.
But I hate the alcohol taste.
I got phobia of it somehow.

Like recently, I got 'allergic' with all these stuff so suddenly.
That's a pretty good thing.

Now, what's up today?
Not gonna expect to be a happening day, like usual.

Where is my happy soul?
I need to find it back.

Btw, I'm sorry to Wirriam for that rubbish last night.
But do you realise? It always happen during CNY?
The reason because I'm lonely.
Nobody knows that empty feeling in my house and in my heart.